week 3

"And from that table, a fictional life unfolds, with Weems playing the lead role."

"It captures a moment in time and shares it but it doesn't share what happened around it, which is something we realize when looking back on it.”

I think it's safe to say that over the last year or two I've been a homebody. With the aftereffects of COVID still hitting, I couldn't get myself to get up from bed and make something of myself. I felt scared of being outside and doing whatever I had to do and the only comfort I got was from being alone in my room where I didn't need to put up a front for anyone. The artist that really struck me the most was Carrie Mae Weems and her kitchen table series. One thing that's definitely true is that time goes on and it doesn't stop for nobody. I felt time slipping through my fingers as I hid myself from everyone for so long and there came a time where it started to scare me. At 22 years old I started seeing how my fear of connection was ruining relationships, ruining opportunities for myself and around this time last year I knew I needed to make a difference. For this weeks assignment, I compiled a series of photos I took over the last two weeks of things I saw that felt pretty and times where I was nervous about going out and ended up having a good time. Just like the kitchen table series, I wanted capture the essence of time and how things change. How one moment I can be holding myself back from bigger and better things and the next I'm going out of my way to meet new people and see new places because I know that I deserve to experience life. 

The first photo was taken during the aftermath of the Lunar New Year. A friend I met via instagram asked me if I wanted to go enjoy the festivities in Chinatown during the night of the new year and although I was hesitant because 1. it was raining and 2. I wasn't feeling very social, I still went and I actually had an amazing time!

For the second photo, I took myself on a date and decided to go see the Thierry Mugler exhibit in the Brooklyn museum as a treat for being on top of my responsibilities over the last couple of months. I was really nervous throughout because there were a lot of people who actually knew what they were talking about and I felt like I wasn't going to fit in over there. But at the same time, I was also really excited since I love Mugler and his work. I did end up having a better time than I thought because his work drew me in I barely had time to feel self conscious. 

In the third picture, I was out getting drinks with my sister for her 30th birthday. Usually when I'm out with her I always have her speak for me and this time around they had gotten my order wrong. I got really nervous about it and wanted her to tell the waiter the issue but she ended up forcing me to do it myself. It wasn't even that scary.

For the last picture, my friends and I went to this place in Fort Lee that sells really cute toys. I ended up getting the exact sonny angel I wanted and we got drinks later after. I had a really fun night that night and also it was my first time riding in a Tesla so I couldn't shut up about that.

Happy lunar new year!

Mugler

"They messed up my order"

Baby's first Tesla